hey , im being positive!

hmmm, unfortunately, frens is the only thing i can become with her... finally, she spilled it out...

she got someone already... i know i wont be fine with it, and i know i surely need a damn long time to recover from knowing that, but....

everything was happy... and it all ended quite quickly... her parents asked me to go for dinner with them on monday.... not to say im not gentleman or not sporting enough but, shud i go? if i go, it will make the situation more complicated.... but her parents insisted.... i guess i have to go...

she resigned from that horrid job... luckily....

if she would just say, im sorry louee, i made the wrong choice and i wan you back, everything will be forgiven no matter how the situation is... i cant approve and accept she got another bf... but if thats what she wants, then let it be ba..=)

im smiling with tears rolling down.... now the book of us, only me trying to write something to fill up that book... i guess i have to close the book....

i was heartbroken to know that she have to walk to work, to ease that i chose to approve to let that guy fetch her... but never knew that something so....... fucked up would happen...

i wan her back, she is the reason i thought of the future, thought of raising 2 kids.... and becoming rich just to bring her go everywhere she dont have the chance to go.... she is the reason im motivated to study.... but i cant let this thing affect me... although now i dont have the mood... soon! give me 1 week tops..... i will crawl out from this love trap... this consider to be my first love as i did not get hurt this badly..... 4 days, no mood to eat no mood to sleep....

if people ask me, why dun u let go? i ask u back, would u let go tat easily? if can so fast let go, that isnt called love! dumb!

but i hope, he would be able to make u smile whenever... as i did.... u got my wish.... but also curse.... its like a dr.jekyl and mr hyde thingy.... haha...

i dun wanna be emo....

sometimes love comes around, and they knock you down but just get back up when they knock you down...=)

hope everything will turn out fine...

till next time... louee outside bitches!!!!!!!!!!!